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Chuu's Day (≧▽≦) (tw: venting and other things you know)
05.12.22: My class is doing a big trip to a foreign country so that we practice speaking in other languages. The thing is that we are going to be put in guest families always with two people from our class. And since I just recently came to that new school i know nobody... and they kinda don't like me. I'm always so stupid lonely I can't be in any friend group. Also in my class there are 90% just boys....... and I don't like them and they also don't like me. I don't want to go to this trip. I would rather go to school at that time. But money is also a problem ,my parents tell me they are ok with the cost but why should i go there just to be the only one that isn't enjoying herself. I don't know what to do. help. I'm terrible in talking and making friends :( I just hope tomorrow will be a better day.... (sad) Chuu (^з^)-☆Chu!!
06.12.22: Sadly I can't work this week and next week on my website bcs of school(Ｔ▽Ｔ) I really need to get better in Math... Chuu (^з^)-☆Chu!!
08.12.22: Will school ever give me break!?!?! Chuu (^з^)-☆Chu!!
18.12.22: I can finaly continue my work here (＾▽＾) I will have now time to learn some coding bcs I've got no idea how this works... I've been thinking how to decorated this site but how I said I'VE GOT NO IDEA HOW TO CODE (╥_╥) Chuu (^з^)-☆Chu!!
08.01.23: happy new year!! I spend that night alone hearing music until 12pm. I was sadly sick for a whole week and now I spended my days doing nothing.... tomorrow is school for me and I'm scared i didn't talked to a person for one week straight and I kinda forgot how to use words? School is gonna be so stressful i've got a math exam soon and I'm stressing. But this is how life is.... on christmas I got a cat calender! I went to my local kpop and anime stuff shop and bought a lot from the money i got from my birthdays and so. ok i wrote everything what I wanted to say (even though nobody reads it) Chuu (^з^)-☆Chu!!
21.01.23: SO SORRYY I DIDN'T UPDATED NOTHING ABOUT MY LIFE. Istg school is stressing me out. I was supposed to learn right now for my math exam but I just feel like doing other things. I hope someday i can have time learning coding bcs this website needs a new look. Chuu (^з^)-☆Chu!!
12.02.23: Why am I so bad in updating. I forget to write something here everyday. Anyways I found out that the girls from my class don't like me. Tbh I don't know what to do now. I really like to learn something in school but i hate to wake up i hate being alone at lunch and breaks. I don't speak the whole day in school. I really start to think that my high school years will be hell for me.... I always sit alone nobody wants to go near me. In my old school people told me that I'm scary looking they compared me with awful people, said that i look like a ghost. I don't know what to do man. I've been getting not alot of sleep lately and because of this I keep seeing creatures or humans that aren't actually there. I don't know how I want to continue.... I will continue using this website as my vent. Chuu (^з^)-☆Chu!!
14.02.23: Happy Valentines Day!! Today is valentine I didn't remebered until i saw on my way to school a girl with flowers. Valentines day is not really a special day for me since I don't have friends in school. I don't know. Maybe I will stay forever invisible. Chuu (^з^)-☆Chu!!
13.03.23: Hiii sorry for not writing but so much has been on my mind these days. I can't concentrate at all these days and I've been panicking about it. I can't get homework done.... how am I suppose to do?!?! I was fine this half year and now everything is gone I just really want to cry. What am I suppose to do!?!? I'm so scared failing my classes. I've been so lonley these days. I only missed one day at school and they changed seats now I sit in front of the teacher in a corner. I feel so unconnected. I just feel so down I've got nobody to tell. My physical state is also bad... everyday headaches and i feel so tired and I've been stress eating alot (gaining weight) I feel so lonley I don't want to live anymore. Right now my head is hurting so much and I have to work. If i don't score good I don't know how to keep me alive. The only place I've got to write this is this littel stupid page.... I hope you "guys" are having a nice week Chuu (^з^)-☆Chu!!